Miscarriage, Chemical Pregnancy..and Late Ovulation!

That all makes for a depressing lunch! The three woman at the lunch table had all this going on within a few days of each other. I went out for lunch with my best friends from high school yesterday..and it was all baby talk. My one friend had just had a miscarriage after having one in July and a still birth last November. Plus, they discovered that she had some genetic clotting disorder on top of it all. My other friend just got her period after getting a few positives on some HPTs...chemical pregnancy.

And me...well my cycle is WEIRD this month. I am not sure if it was the Master Cleanse, the mid-fertile start of Amoxicillin...or what! But I ovulated 6 days later than usual. And the CM was all over the place.

So..we all got ice cream for dessert! It was sooo good!!!

I am currently taking the oral progesterone from P+3 to P+12....Post Peak Day 17 (The day you check for pregnancy) will be CD 34. I have never had a cycle that long....maybe there is a full moon???

I have been turned down for international adoption. That was quick!! You need to be married for 3-5 years for the particular countries. But Kathryn at TAR....told me Ethiopia was 2 years...so I am going to check that out!!!

International Adoption

I am exploring...any insight? I applied online to Bethany Adoptions...but honestly, I have no idea how to begin.

I have always wanted to adopt internationally. I have been on a few missionary trips (Swaziland, Costa Rica, Bosnia...) and had to control myself into NOT stealing a child and bringing them home. So, why not explore.

I would be thrilled to get pregnant and have an adopted baby at the same time....fun!!

No Rash...No Closed Up Throat!

I feel like I have been living a lie all of these years. Telling doctor after doctor that I was allergic to penicillin. Constantly writing it on countless medical documents. When I went to pick up the prescription..the young high schooler behind the register whispered that the pharmacist would like to speak with me. Darn! I was so close to getting this magical "mucus enhancer" that I could only once dream about! "There is a warning on your account about an allergic reaction to penicillin." she said. "Yeah, it is a rash and I am totally okay with getting a rash...is there a waiver I can sign???"

Got my drugs..and went on my merry way! I was already half into my "fertile time"..so I just started taking it and stoppped today. I was told to stop on Peak Day...which is kinda hard to determine until after Peak Day ...so it is a little bit of a quessing game.

Anyhow, had 10CL this morning...so I have no idea what that means..did I ovulate?? Did the antibiotic do it? Who knows???

On another note....I always have these weird run ins with people....and then I over analize them and think they were trying to give me some message form God.

So, I am walking out of the Village Bakery buying my daughter some Bubble Tea to take to her work.. (pictured above..cold tea with cream and tapioca balls!) And this woman says out of the blue..."Everyone thinks my daughter is my granddaughter. That's what happens when you have a baby in your late thirties." Then she starting going on about her daughter teaching her "texting." But, I was stuck on the "late thirties" part.....

I worry about that....and I am constantly bringing it up to my husband. I don't want to be an old tired mom. If I get pregnant today...I am still 60 when the child is 20! I'll be 70 when the child is 30! This is a tough pill to swallow....

Maybe there is a reason I am not getting pregnant...and this lady reminded me of it!

The Worst CM Ever!!

CM is the key to conception. If you ain't got it...you ain't getting pregnant. Plus, I just found out at my Creighton Model appointment that the lower your CM score..the more likely you are to miscarry. Great!

I feel this cycle is a bust. I had 6K, 6K, OAD, 10SL...and that is it! My past CM scores have been a 3 and a 4.....a good mucus score is between 9-16. So, mine is HORRIBLE!!! You can not get pregnant on a 3. And if I miraculously do...I am not starting out well anyhow.

These scores were computed towards the end of my meeting. I turned into a miserable human being from then on....

I need to get my CM working. I want to try the amoxicillin. My Creighton lady faxed my doctor all of the information and I have been trying to call her all morning...but the line is busy. Don't these people have call waiting?

Unfortunately, my personality does not lend for me to go out on a limb and self prescribe myself...so I have to wait for action on my doctors part. I mentioned Fertile CM....and she said it was not part of Napro protocol.

Any other ideas??? Maybe I should go back to the doctor that told me to use egg whites!!

UPDATE: Just got my prescription for amoxicillin!!!!! Yeah!!! I did not mention my allergic stuff. So, if you don't hear from me soon...it is because either my throat has closed up or I have broken out in a deathly rash!!!

Off to CVS.....

Day 9: Struggling and Cheating!

Yesterday I could not down even 1 liter of that lemonade stuff (Noticed how I have lost my affection for my survival drink) But, I was determined not to cheat. So, instead I ate practically nothing. Woke up feeling lightheaded and nauseous. I decide to finished out the detox w/ just juicing vegetables and fruits. I am very glad I made that decision...I feel so much better and went for a brisk walk on the beautiful fall day.

Also, I noticed 8K CM....immediately I went from wanting to starve my body to wanting to feed my body. I was worried that if I got pregnant..the poor child would be sucking on lemons! It is just the protective nature of a mother....so I got myself an Odwalla Superfood Omega 3 w/ Flaxseed Beeries GoMega and indulged! And I got some spicy V8.....which I will have for lunch...yummy!!

I was at the grocery store and saw the biggest pomegranates ever!!! So I bought two. A quick way to add pizazz to your salad is to sprinkle these seeds on top!! I can't wait!

I am so glad that I did this detox. It really helps you to appreciate food ina different way. And when I ween food back into my diet, I am going to be very particular about what I put in it. I am going to try and do more fish...nuts....and raw vegetables!!! Yeah!!

Oh...and on the baseball front...the most amazing game last night! Phils beat the Rockies and we are on to play the Dodgers!! So excited!!!!

Day 8: Hungry....

Good Morning! Yes! I am hungry. I had a meeting this morning to straighten out a tax issue with our accountant and I came out and smelled bread! Panera Bread!! I could practically taste it. I had to quickly get in my car before I made a detour.

I know I have lost weight...and I like that...but I am really sick of this lemonade. I am on Day 6 of just the lemonade....and I am dying to chew something...even a little piece of gum! I find myself making plan about what I am going to eat next Sunday. The day I come off the detox.I feel like I am on Survivor...

My husband refuses to give up the coffee in the morning. I told him that was not part of the program and that it kinda defeats the purpose of the "detox." He would never last on Survivor.

Great news: Phillies won last night...and I am such a loser...I stayed up til 2:30am to watch the game. I will pay for it today. Maybe that is why I am feeling low energy and hungry.

I am thinking about taking Mucinex. The detox says not to take any medication...but I really don't want to miss out on this cycle...I hope it doesn't matter. I need some good CM!!! If not I am kidnapping my doctor until see gives me some amoxicillian! Ha!

Day 6: My Jealous Husband Is Joining!!!

I lost one, but I think I am gaining another!! My husband is feeling really guilty about eating and was making fun of my "cleanse"....and wouldn't you know it...he was secretly wishing to do it himself! Ha! So, tomorrow I am putting him on the cleanse...easing him in w/ fruits and vegetables! He is just going to finish in out with me....not add any extra days.

I am bored with the lemonade....I only drank 1 liter today so far....I just can't do another sip today. So, I made myself the tea w/ 1 tablespoon of maple syrup...since I didn't use it in the lemonade. I am getting creative...

I went for a brisk walk and felt great....I definitely feel lighter and healthier.

I spoke to my sister tonight. She was diagnosed with low progesterone as well....honestly there is an epidemic!! We need to go back to storing foods and drink in glass! And getting rid of those extra hormones in everything...ugh!!! What is a woman to do??? Anyhow, she has to take the shots of HCG...(maybe I can sneak a hit!!) So, my husband needs to have a conference call with her husband to explain to him how to do it. My husband was very good w/ the shots...I think he actually enjoyed it. He always wanted to be a doctor instead of a funeral director!! Ha!

SNOWING in Colorado!! The Phillies game is canceled for tonight. Play the stupid game during normal hours...and get a dome over your stadium!!